Update September 26 2009

I've done three radiation treatments so far with another seven to go. The actual treatments are really nothing. I lie on a table similar to a cat scan table and the machine moves around me. It takes about five minutes or less. In fact, it probably takes me longer to get undressed and dressed before and afterwards. I have no pain at all. It's a million times better then chemotherapy.

I have been feeling fatigue, a small amount of nausea, and general discomfort afterwards. The main issue I've been having is panic attacks. I had another one Thursday, worse then the previous on I had back on August 28th. This one was bad enough that Mom had to come over at 6:30 in the morning and help "talk me down." I'd much rather be in physical pain then have these constant attacks. I am taking Xanax regularly, which has helped a lot. Sleep wise, things are still not normal. I am waking up five and six times a night and cannot go back to sleep. I am working with Josh Freedman, whom many of you know, and hopefully we can adjust things enough so that I am sleeping through the night. As you can see, it's a little after 5am on a Saturday and I'm awake.

I'm asking again for anyone who is interested to call, text or e-mail me and come by and spend some time with me. This has been really hard and I don't want to be by myself.