Update September 5 2009

Today is the first day I have felt anything close to normal in quite a while. I have been having panic attacks regularly for the past week and going to sleep, or simply relaxing for that matter, has been a real challenge. I slept amazing well last night, woke up one time and went back to sleep quickly. I don't have that anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach anymore. For those of you who have experienced panic attacks, you know what that feeling is like; anxiety and fear every waking moment, and anticipatory fear that at any moment a panic attack will reoccur. Today I don't have that feeling, and it is a blessing, a Godsend, to feel wonderfuly normal in my body and mind.