I went to see the orthopedic surgeon Dr. Earl Brian at Cedars yesterday. I saw the MRI results and it was obvious that the cancer has caused significant damage to both my femurs, but particularly to my left femur. As a result I will have to have surgery immediately. The plan is to insert a rod into my femur (my left for sure; my right I think as well) to strengthen the bone and keep it from breaking. I will be going in to the hospital a few days before to make sure I am at my best before they operate. Afterwards I will be in the hospital for 4 to six days, followed by rehabilitation, followed by physical therapy.
All of the doctors have said the surgery will not be easy because I am a large (read fat) person and I have a lot of underlining health issues. To do nothing, however, is to risk me breaking both my legs, which would be even worse. So I will be having surgery.
I am very scared for many reasons. The idea of going under scares me because giving up control is extremely frightening. The whole thing seems very frightening. I want to stay as much as I can in the moment and deal with the future when it arrives.
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