Saturday, April 5, 2008

How I am feeling

Physically, I feel below average. I am still feeling nauseous and feeling like I need to crap every five minutes. I am tired, probably due to taking compazine and also general fatigue. It is hard for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. I feel very discouraged. I can't project myself into a future where I will feel better. All I see is feeling sick. Intelectually, I know this is not so. I have to simply relax and take it easy. It is just hard with the reality of this in my face all the time. I can't see another reality right now. I hope this makes sense.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Oh sweet Ben, of course it makes sense. You are in the center of an awful experience. It is hard to see the light but nevertheless you continue to put one foot in front of the other, bravely, following orders that at this moment only make you feel sick. The doctor believes you will make it to the other side, so do I and somewhere inside, so do you. We love you so much. Mom and Dad