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I spent pretty much all day at two different Doctor's offices with my Mom and Dad (my biological father, not John). Here is what we know:

As I mentioned before, this is not a chordoma. It is, unfortunately, a fairly rare cancer presentation. They are not entirely sure what it is, or where it originates from; and this presents a problem because, if they don't know where it originates from, they can't treat it properly. So, for example, if this originated from the colon, the chemo treatment would be one thing; if it came from the lungs, it would be treated another way. It apparently is very rare to have this type of tumor in this particular location; they think it may have started from somewhere else in the body and traveled there. So, they have to find the original source.

In order to do that, more tests are in order, among them a PET scan, a second colonoscopy, a brain MRI, and a chest CT scan. So, I'll be involved in those for a while. There is no surgery date in the forseable future, if there is to be one at all. Most likely this will be a chemo based treatment, with surgery to come later if at all. I like the oncologist very much and we are on the same page as far as treatment goes, so I have confidence in him and his approach. I do plan to get a second opinion from a different oncologist as well.

Emotionally, I am drained. I am really pissed off at God for making me go through this and interupting the plans I had for my life. I am extremely grateful for my wonderful family, without whom I would not be able to survive this. And, I will survive. Let there be no doubt about that.

I've decided to do a reverse "act as if". I have been putting off a lot of things until the treatment is clarified and completed, such as trying to meet women and doing some things career wise. Since it's pretty clear the treatment will not be clarified nor completed any time soon, I am not going to wait around any longer. I've decided to put my profile up on some of the dating sites and see what happens. I've decided not to wait any longer and try to do some continuing education online pertaining to my career. I'm not going to wait. I am going to live my life as much as possible, and move forward with my plans and schemes as much as possible, taking into account what I am dealing with. I have nothing to lose. And I feel really shitty waiting around for the shoe to drop, which is clear aint gonna happen any time soon.